it drives u nuts.

no, i am not representing the Smart, the mugging community or the marking of scripts.

Just today, i crushed and re-did my gp essay 3 TIMES. yes, i wrote the same intro 3 times and halfway thru the essay, felt it did not make sense. crushed.redid.crushed.redid.

today wasnt particularly fantastic.

my eyesight has always been on-off. when i can see well, i have probably the best eyes next to the Bionic woman.when i can't see for nuts.. i squint and narrow my eyes so badly i look like a half awake drug addict.

today-is-bad.

really bad day for my eyes. couldn't read the date of the screen of my lappie..mistook a crushed tissue as a cockroach. I kicked the miserable thing accidentally and it looked for a second like it could MOVE.

about to scream when i realised it was not one of those freaking creatures.

among other amazing things, my pen fell from my hand as i lost control of my movement during my essay writing/crushing.
forget important stuff the moment i manage to remember them.

i have to think hard just to remember what i want to blog..
feel like sleeping and automatically zones off every time i encounter homework and treacherous details to memorise(like chem SPA/geog case studiesss/...)

if u thought u havent seen me lose my composure or act like a mad fool, its because i have gone beyond that.

i am the calm and serene kind of madness not the pull hair/laugh/scream/cry/incoherence kind of madness.

yes.and i wonder why i look depressed and un-depressed all in a matter of minutes.

right. off to do my usual poison..please dont run away if u see me next time-- its always faster to take a taxi.

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