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Marion Raven-Little by little

little by little
i think we'll understand this

little by little
i think we'll comprehend this

little by little

it'll take some time
to find it out

to make a change
u got to change your mind

cos its hard enough to get a grip
its hard as it is without us being left behind

i know this much is true
hey yeah

little by little
i think we'll understand this

little by little
i think we will comprehend this
little by little
u 'll take me as i end it

Labels: laugh outside and cry inside.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:43 AM

yesterday was my cousin's wedding.

pretty cool dinner with all those neon lights and model waiters.^.-

drank a couple glasses of wine.
wasn't drunk but felt warm.

amazing how some of them can drink until they can laugh louder than sirens.
there was this 3 guys who were hugging each other at the end of the dinner.LOL.

red monkey faces everywhere.0.0

did a bit of job hunting today.
got an interview and applied for one.

hopefully i will be able to find a job till end december.

NO LONG SLEEVE SHIRT FOR PROM.
hahaha.=)
t shirt and shorts can also i think
HAHAHA.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:12 AM

this is for yesterday.=)

Happy Belated Sarene!^^

Labels: esplanade, pig out, raffles city

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:16 PM

The photos from huiqi's camera..ps: its a mixture of vivo and pasir ris park.

ok..not many pictures left..i'm too lazy to upload everything..=)

Yah..my point is ..i love these people.=p

Labels: outing with the dears

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:00 AM

here are the pics from my phone as i have promised.=p

(still have many photos in Huiqi's camera..girl, u better send me fast or i'll throw u in the sea to feed the sharks=p)

The following was taken at Vivo,pasir ris park and Little India.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

3:43 AM

went to many places today..

went to bugis to sell some text books and also shop around bugis street.
I AM DEFINITELY GOING THERE AGAIN.=)

then went to Somerset to meet huiqi and sarene..and took train to dhoby ghaut and then to vivo.

Went to find mr OYC who was working at Tangs..=)..at 4 plus, we went to Pacific Coffee which had this awesome view of the sea to slack.

its so bloody gorgeous.=D

upload pics tmr..

toook aloooot of photos..then talked and took somemore photos till 6 plus...

went to walk around a bit before heading back to pick oyc..

train ride back to citylink mall..
waited for ben a bit before heading to suntec for dinner..

dinner was pretty quiet ..guess they were really tired..

saw a really nice vintage bag going for 39.90

REALLY NICE HOR.

stallkeeper:Last piece already..=p

me:o.o....-.-"

i am very upset.cos i didnt buy it.='(

the day was saved by a nice pair of shoes mummy bought for me..=D

i feel damn guilty for being home late.cos she didnt nag at all.

sigh..sorry mum!

if possible, will be going to the park tmr..sigh..dad's in a bad mood.

MONDAY'S THE DAY.=P

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:02 AM

When we live such fragile lives
its the best way we survive
clown around a time or two
just to waste my time with you

i'll keep you
my dirty little secret
dont tell anyone
or it'd be just another regret
who has to know

damn..this song keeps ringing in my ears.
=)

going out tomorrow..=D

BETTER NOT RAIN HUH.=x

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:03 AM

sorry for the absence these days.
really nothing much to blog about.

feeling damn lethargic these days and i dont know why.
probably caught a flu or something.

plan to finish urban geog tonight, if i manage to shake off the double vision that's occurring way too often.

sigh.
too lazy to upload photos.

next time maybe.=(

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:44 AM

Today was a total mix of feelings.

Had c.i.p briefing at bishan junction8 for gift wrap.
clocked cip hours but, really, it was kind of a boring briefing.

the guy in charge went to the extent of showing a video of non-profit family organisation..plus showed the revenues and expenditures(TOTALLY UNNECESSARY IN THE LIGHT OF QUESTIONABLE ORGANISATIONS)
then, went on to talk about a lot of stuff that zoomed out of my ears as quickly as they went in.in fact, i was zoning in and out throughout the briefing.

then there were demonstrations of how to gift wrap..like boxes..and irregular stuff like,stuffed toys.

kind of crazy(my trial wrap looked like a diaper.-.-)

sigh.

then went to meet my parents for dinner.

went to Little India to eat some authentic indian cuisine.

the food was really good!tried nan and spinach+cottage cheese(surprisingly yummy)
then strolled through the streets with the beautifully lit deco for deepavali..

i want to go there to eat again.=)..oh, though its random..i bought a top/dress (wear it either way) for $5! and it looks quite expensive..thanks to huiqi who persuaded me to buy..=)
really like it.bought it at Bugis Street 3rd floor.there were other nice clothes and bags and shoes and necklaces but i was in a hurry and my finance dept is in repairs.

ps: Huiqi and ben, plans for fishing?^.^

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:56 AM

this few days are a blur.

always dizzy,depressed,can't sleep till 5 0r 6 in the morning.

at this rate i'm going to die soon.
'my hair colour's a mess.
only the fringe is brown.

SIGH.

hope things will pick up.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:19 AM

I feel extremely sick today.

extremely sick. got to go.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:15 AM

BUSY day today.
Did a lot of work that i'm paid and not paid for.

also helped my brother with his homework of designing a game character-(i helped him decide on a pregnant seahorse).
added hands(LOTS OF MUSCLE) and fiery headband for personalising.

pretty ugly, i would say..

C'MON, I don't specialise in Art!=s

well, anyway it DOES look like a seahorse.So dont complain.
Have to attend my cousin's pre wedding lunch tomorrow.But really busy and way behind schedule for revision.SIGH.

And sis's worried cos they will ask her those..superveryirritatingbutcommonlyaskedstupidnoseyquestions like"when are you getting married HUH? OR.."huh?dont have a boyfriend yet?..tsk tsk!my ah girl younger than you got boyfriend already leh..aiyoh.."kind of thing.

SAD.tragic.

HELL.

and for that matter, my sis is only 23.

gosh.this is frreeaking singapore.not an ELDC(economically less developed country)
ok, in some terms, singapore is an ELDC. we dont have the population to boost the productivity.
but our women are mostly educated,workfirstmensecond-last and marriage comes like thelastmonthbeforeyoucannevergetasafepregnancy society.

scary isnt it?

oh, and i spent the whole afternoon and night designing and doing somebody's birthday present.
Better appreciate it.Or i will kill you.0.0

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:34 AM

HAPPY DEEPAVALI.=)

Rather stifling day for me.

okay, so it was superblyawesomelyirritatinglyannoyinglyunjustlyunfairlyundeniably

BORING.

did another bit of my jigsaw. its sososososo frustrating when i can't find the pieces.

Tigger found his nose but eeyore lost his ears.HAHA.

my handphone has no more batterylife but its ok.
No one calls anyway.

lalala..
my hair colours getting lighter and lighter.

Out in the sun it would probably look like my head's on fire.HAAHA.

saw too many lovely bags,be it sling, tote,clutch,or oversized.

i'm saving up for the following:
LG Shine ku970
checkered maroon green leather oversized bag.
dont know the exact name of course.will find out soon.^.^
black and white pumps.

okay, going to do my nails properly now.

the colour's fading.=)

till the next post.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:12 AM

I am very problematic.

yup, thats the conclusion i come to.

every problem seem to originate from me, right?

sigh.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:09 AM

Why dont u ever try understanding me?

U even treat neighbours and my friends better than u treat me.
What did i do, so wrong that u have to treat me like that?

I have been crying for 38 mins already,dont i deserve a chance to know, why time and time again u just dont trust me or love me?

The feeling just keeps getting stronger that u love sis and bro more than u ever did for me.

in your eyes, i am just a useless and stupid person that should never have existed right?

When i was feeling down, u add on with your cold sarcasm..i really had enough of it..

so this is it?

WHY.?
i never did anything that pleased you.IS THAT IT?
i tried so hard.so hard to please u.
i never even thought about doing what i wanted.be it in studies or other stuff.
i feel damn sick and tired.

really.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:05 AM

I AM REALLY VERY UPSET TODAY.

i dont know how to start writng about it.It's simple.

My dad doesnt trust me/have the least respect/for me.
When i talked to him today, he REFUSED to answer me- like those one sided conversations, and instead talks to my mum.

I am really sick of it.

My bro wanted me to get stuff for his project.which is the TRUTH cos dad was there when he said about the stuff he wanted.

But, dear dad insisted that there was no Art Friend at Takashimaya.
In fact, he probably thinks that anywhere that could be a possible place for me to go out with my friends couldnt be a place selling stuff for my brother.

He thinks i am going there to have fun with my friends.

Good.
then i shall just sit back at do my stuff while he go shop for the clay ,wood plaque and wire.

Thanks dad.

Well, you could also think of getting some thick rope and reinforcement bars for my windows and a cat flap for my room door.

Just like the scene in Harry Potter's Chamber of Secrets.

Just that i wont have magic to get out.

yah, you never ever trusted me what.you probably never trusted anyone.
just to make sure, maybe you can get a webcam in my room to see what i am doing too.
Dont know how to use it?..go to Yahoo Answers la..they teach it there.

oh, on a side note, i dyed my hair copper brown today.But that wont matter cos i will be stuck at home and probably be homeschooled.

Yah, and maybe having barred outgoing calls and smses is a bonus too.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:49 AM

Now we bring to you a special 2mins(if u bother to read) report on the bad-dest people on this overpopulated and disgustingly unequal World.

Some notable notable people includes..

at number #44

Benjamin Lim Sheng

Even without any special effects, he looks like a criminal..

Famous Sentence:"I live in bin laden's beard."

"Sarene lives in a DHL cardboard box."

HAAHA.scream for mercy when u see sarene on wednesday.=)

Crime:Has a goatie like those ah pehs.does gestures that makes him look like a pervert.

number#55

Sarene Ang Jing Ying

Famous Sentences:"Ben is a dingus."

"Huh?Will get fat one leh?!"(object spoken about is a buffet)

Crime: when placed with Ben, u 'd be better off with screaming whiny kids.^.^

For more information on dangerously bbbbbaddd people around the world..

tune in to this channel.

Have a good evening.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:17 AM

Got a haircut today..=)

not too bad..shorter by at least 10cm..have a new fringe!^.^

yah..also have a new resolution..i must live more healthily..

so i had oats for dinner.with half a teaspoon of milk. kind of gooey,tasteless but still very filling.
i think if i carry on eating like that, i will be as fit as those pe teachers..HAHA.(not forgetting 2.4km everyday + situps and pushups)

yah..dying to go for some retail therapy but i am BROKE.

no money no money$$$$$$!

yup, my life's going up the hill for now.starting up my revision speed and also doing a thousand piece jigsaw.
Tigger is missing a nose.

HAHAHA.

Bro and Dad is watching Arsenal VS Man Utd now.

Hahah.i think the match is rather hilarious.Especially the Anderson guy.

Dad's hoping that Man Utd will lose while Bro is a die hard supporter of Man Utd.HAHAHA.

hope they dont fight.
i think watching soccer occasionally is a JOY.

quite fun i have to admit.
=)
Anyway, i am kinda bored so i am rambling on.

I WANT TO WATCH HALLOWEEN AND 11TH HOUR!!!=p
but i have no $.rawr.

sponsors please.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:40 AM

random thoughts on this cold cold night.

was thinking about TK today and it shocked me to realise that i didnt have much of a memory besides a few special friends and moments.

First of all, in Sec 1 and 2, life was pretty vague besides Christine and Hanisah. the only thing i remembered was having done PW with bel,zul and alif. then i remembered how i felt when i wasnt accepted in the group of girls.hah.
the class consisted of nice individuals and occasional jokers, but it was hard. i couldnt find groups i belong to.

then sec 3 came and went, as i adjusted to the uncomfortable idea of doing combined science.
some cool people there were.
carmen,jiahui,jocelyn,yingbao,yinzi,hanisah=),farhanna,shuzhen,eunice..
and the few good guys like darren and adrian and wenfu and jacky(funny=p)..haha.

fun class but was similar to sec 1 and 2.

was closer to 4f and 4h..people like(sally,zukai,james,anisah,shuuji from 4e,and rachel from 4h)

its really sad when i think back about secondary school and can't quite remember anything very significant.

ok..so the band was like the best memory i had.the outdoors, indoors(not so much la)

i still dream about playing the clarinet!=)

yah..then went to Mj after first three months.

our class was fun with people like PG and esther and jean,seri,siti,angela,hannah,seehui,sebastian,james,clifton,gughan,azmall,naroth,cy,weiming,alan,irshad
haikal,nasir,heru,zhengxin..

sigh..but time passed so fast and i got retained so didnt see them much after too.=(

this years class's pretty small..but people are nice..

though i am closer to OYC,ben,sarene,huiqi,shimin,eunice,jon..

sigh.
My life was an utter waste.or was it not?

so tell me
so tell me
as we talk
quarrel
and get pissed
with each other
things change
yes they do
as the world keeps
spinning
and we keep living
so was it all worth it
or better off a dream
that was never meant to
come true...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:01 AM

WHOA.444 visits.

444=die die die!

HAHAHA.

yah, i have no life.

worked out a very IRRITATING study plan.trying hard to follow it lah, of course:)
if its successful, I will be the top student in MJ.HAHAHAHA.

INmy dreams la..in my dreams.

but its good to dream isnt it?

I NEED MOTIVATION.bloody motivation.

cos i feel so damn patronising everytime i flip that notes or look at that periodic(moronic/idiotic) table.

MY SIS CYCLING AT PASIR RIS PARK NOW.

I WANT TO GO TOOOO!

=(

i think her bones will snap when she rides the bike cos she hasnt exercised in 56784958320987 years.

sir-riously.

i think since her volleyball days/HAHAHA!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

2:44 AM

OK..its like 202am in the morning.

chatting with Fahmi on MSN..cos he's like super awake now.

yah and on a more random note..I MISS MRS CHUA!!=x

yah..like really super really super really miss her CAN!!?

='(

yah..talked about how superficial some people are when they decide to chase skirts or pants..

yah..we the bright and matured ones will only look out for personality and character.

average looks are perfectly fine.

LIKE WTH.

must have those perfect eyes nose and mouth and sexy voice then can consider meh?(pardon my singlish)

hurr.

yah. and i also want to go Pasir Ris Park..to sit on the breakwaters in the hot sweltering sun.HAHA.

i want to go IKEA tooooo=)

sign up in the tag box if u want to come along=)

HAHA.SO EXCITTTTING!!

oh yar..and i am up so late cos i want to experience first hand how it is like to stay up all night.

Like my sis who's doing night shift at the hospital's OT.

ok, i bloody admire her guts for being an OT scrub nurse.cos everyday there are patients who need to operate brain,heart,hip fracture,suicide cases,amputations....etc.

then all u see is a red mess and all u smell is blood.

DAMN DISGUSTING.

and she takes it all.

i salute u for being so gutsy la.

HELL WITH THOSE WHO ONLY THINK ABOUT DOCTORS WHEN IT COMES TO RECOGNITION.

this evening..

sis:wah..some idiot ytd tried committing suicide.(old guy)

sis:jump down from 3rd floor..

sis:want to die jump from higher floor la.(gasp!*)

sis:whole body all fractures then operate for many hrs.

sis:anaesthesia run out somemore struggle.

sis:dont know will jump again not..sigh.and drivers who drink too!all this people very mafan.*(troublesome)

haha..she was so pissed with that op that she even complained in front of the police who was in charge of that suicide fellow(suicide is a crime)

haiyah..

my sassy sister.=)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:01 AM

coffee coffee coffee.

sigh.

i didnt exactly follow my study plan.=(

i read the newspapers for only 1 hr and 20 mins.=s

(well, i did skip the sports section)

still doing geog which is way behind schedule.

SIGH.

ok..full speed ahead..or no sleep tonight!!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:06 AM

address

i'm sorry that you assume its you..think about it ..have i ever asked for your listening ear? if i havent, it isnt you..think about it.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:20 AM